Today, while studying scripture, I came across Lk 11:17, where Jesus says "Every kingdom divided against itself is brought to desolation; and a house divided against a house falleth."
Now, this particular passage is when then Pharisees are trying to acuse Jesus of casting out devils by the power of the devil, but today I saw the proverb from a totally unique perpspective, and thougth I'd share it with you.
A house divided against itself defeats itself. If I am "the house," am I taking actions against myself? I used to. I used to do the following things:
Said I wanted to lose weight, but then ate uncontrollably when I was upset or stressed
Said I wanted to keep my life organized, but came home and dumped papers wherever convenient (but then usually couldn't find them again!)
Said I wanted to ensure my bills were paid on time but then when the bill came in, I lumped it in with the rest of the mail and then somehow forgot it?
Professed my love to someone and then turned around and screamed at them for some stupid little thing.
In short, I was opposing myself! Defeating my own goals! Talking out both sides of my mouth! Making myself miserable through behavior which hindered my goals and my relationship.
These are all behaviors I have overcome in the last year of self-discovery, but I feel some of them (like the eating) creeping back in.
Thankfully, the Lord will give me strength (through His Holy Spirit) to resist the urge to oppose myself so that I don't become, once again, a house divided.